Friday, July 08, 2005
Hope Conquers Fear
I am so moved by the tragedy in London. I know there have been many on all sides of the political spectrum who have used the event to make some point or another. For me, it is simply an awful catastrophe. It was just one more example of the depths of man's inhumanity to man. I pray for the families and loved ones of those that died and I grieve with them. I pray for healing for so many that were injured and I hope with them. As Prime Minister Blair said, the evil ones hope to destroy hope but hope is our greatest weapon.
Friday, July 01, 2005
Well, I am back at it
It has been some time since I've blogged. I have been busy (short-staffed at work, taking two classes, kid stuff), but the main thing is that I have been conflicted about what to write. On the message board I frequent, there has been an explosion of sorts and it has sort of tainted my Independence Day. There seem to be a number of people that DESPISE
the President and this means that they can not seem to enjoy the good things about this country of ours. I can understand becoming physically ill at the very thought of a president (although my reaction was to another president), but it seems to be a shame to let it ruin a celebation like Independence Day. Well, I am truly looking forward to the holiday, regardless.
Friday, June 03, 2005
Why have I been so whiny this week?
Looking over my blog for the past week, I was thinking, "You are pathetic." I have so much for which to be grateful. Both my girls are healthy and have done extremely well academically and socially this last year. Summer is right around the corner. I am just a few credit hours from completing my MSW. Kay and I are doing well in our relationship. I am not hungry or impoverished or in danger of the lights being cut off. All in all, I am at a wonderful place in my life and I thought it was high time I acknowledge it.
Thursday, June 02, 2005
This week has been sooo long
The knowledge that I have to attend a class this summer, that my boss is an inflexible jerk, that I have a thousand things to do this summer, and that I will probably not have near the time for fun that I thought I would, have all combined to make the short week miserably long. The one bright spot is that I plan to meet with some great OT peeps on Sunday. I can hardly wait.
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Why can't people make sense?
I suppose it is because I have been fortunate enough to experience really good management that I chafe at poor management. I truly believe that when you treat employees with respect/consideration and you attempt to put them in situations that empower them, they will do a better job. Inversely, if you over-manage them, treat them like children, change the rules at the last minute, and generally try to be domineering, they will resent you and look for any opportunity to cut you off at the knees.
I work in a department with two other people. This does not give much room for back up if someone is ill or needs to take a day off. I have worked many times by myself because my other two co-workers have called off. Today, my supervisor told me she could not approve my schedule adjustment (so I could take my last class) because one of my co-workers is having surgery and would be out for six weeks. That would leave the other person working by themselves for three hours on Mondays and Wednesdays. I have bent over backward for this company. I have worked over and have done anything they have asked of me (including maintenance and computer work). Why can't they see that they are ruining their relationship with their best workers?
Thursday, May 26, 2005
I need a break
I keep thinking things are going to get easier. Once I finish school, finish this current project, the kids get out of school, things slow down at work- I will be able to take it easy and do more "fun" things. However, I am finding that things never truly slow down and that I really enjoy being busy. When one thing is finished I add two more activities to the mix. Am I addicted to excitement/activity? Perhaps, but when my boss asked if I wanted some overtime, I said, "Yes!" before I could even think about it. It appears that I feel the best when I am occupied with things I feel are good and important and valuable.
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
A Sentimental Fool
I have to say, I was surprised at my reaction to watching the Romber wedding last night. I had tears in my eyes and found myself incredibly wrapped up in the whole thing. Weddings and births have a tendency to remind us of how nice life can be. Seeing two people so in love, overcoming obstacles, and truly being there for each other gives me hope and helps me remember the power of the human spirit.
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
"It is just two groups trying to get their way."
This is the comment my liberal co-worker made regarding the filibuster flap. I thought this was a concise summary of all of American politics. I find it entertaining to listen to the folks on the radio or even at OT, folks from both sides of the aisle, going on about how they have the moral high ground. Both parties say, "I love the flag and the Constitution. The other side is evil and hates this country." I have become increasingly aware of how silly all of it is. Of course, I am somewhat fatalistic and believe that what is meant to happen will happen eventually anyway. As JV might say, "YMMV (your mileage may vary)."
Monday, May 23, 2005
I was able to watch my eldest play softball this evening. What an interesting juxtaposition of stereotypical gender roles and androgynous fun. There were girls wearing makeup and earrings screaming to "knock the ball out of the park!" Girls were simultaneously knocking the catcher over as they slide into home and then getting up and smiling at a boy they thought was cute. Mary Pipher's book, Reviving Ophelia : Saving the Selves of Adolescent Girls, indicates that part of the reason adolescence is so turbulent for girls is that they feel societal pressure to lose parts of themselves. The parts that are androgynous from their childhood- the period of time when they can just be who they are. It was wonderful to see that girl's softball seems to be a last bastion of this time period, where girls can be their whole selves, before they feel the pressures of conforming to the role of womanhood.
Friday, May 20, 2005
I wonder if I will get better at this
I have been reading other blogs today. Mostly my friends from OT. These blogs cover a wide variety of subjects from the political to the personal to the insane. But each blog seemed so much better than mine. Deeper, funnier, more powerful, more meaningful- Oh well, I am better for having read them. I hope to, one day, write about something important or humorous or interesting. For now, I will just settle with the discipline of blogging every day.
Thursday, May 19, 2005
Should I be posting?
After hearing all the horror stories about people who have lost there jobs over blogging, I wondered if I should be doing it. Then I re-read my blog and realized that it was so vanilla, no one could possibly be offended enough to fire me. I hope to step it up in the coming days a little, though. Then maybe I will have a blog worthy of firing me.
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
I guess it does all work out, after all
Well I found out that I will be able to participate in the graduation ceremony in June. I still have to take a class this summer and finish a few things. I still feel embarrassed and disappointed. But it does seem like everything will be okay and I will finish, eventually. I think one learns a lot from overcoming the obstacles of life. Basically, I am also feeling loved and supported today- and that's a good thing.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
I said I was going to blog every week day, so . . .
What do we do when everything goes wrong? Lean on our friends, turn to God, or just turn bitter? I have already posted about how I am getting my Masters. I had what I thought was my last class yesterday. Then today I discovered that I may have miscalculated and I may be one class short. I thought I had everything figured out, but it appears I am wrong. Now, my parents are on their way, I have told everybody I know, and it appears that my dream will be delayed. This stinks! I am somewhat in shock. Although I know, logically, I have been through worse and "this too shall pass," I feel really empty and afraid now, but tomorrow is another day.
Monday, May 16, 2005
Do I step out of my comfort zone?
As I posted previously, I will complete my Master's program in a few weeks. This leads to some interesting opportunities. I have signed an agreement to continue with my current employer until next April. However, there are a number of prospects within the organization. The quandary comes in the fact that I have worked in this same department for over five years. I am comfortable, if unchallenged. I have my own space and have a lot of freedom and flexibility. However, the job is somewhat monotonous and I am not exercising my clinical skills. So, do I jump or play it safe?
Friday, May 13, 2005
On accomplishing goals
In a few weeks, I will have completed the three year odyssey of obtaining my Master's degree in Social Work. Although I am excited about it, I also am beginning to feel a tinge of the inevitable let down to follow. Accomplishing goals makes me feel proud, but some times I tend to expect too much. I ask myself, "Shouldn't I be more fulfilled? How, exactly, am I better off now? What have I gained and why don't I feel better about it." I suppose that is life as an idealistic Pisces.
Time for a new start
Well, so much for posting here. It has been a couple of months since my last post. I have been extremely busy with school, but it is really no excuse. I have decided to commit to write a little every week day. I want this to become a habit because I want to write more. I need the practice and I do not have to write anything interesting or useful. So I will begin today.
Friday, March 04, 2005
And so it begins . . .
I have contemplated publishing a blog for some time. Although some would not believe it, I am somewhat of an introvert. My thoughts run deep, though. I entertain my co-workers and others with my daily commentary, so I thought I would try to create my own space on the web to "spread the wealth!" Who knows, this may go by the wayside like so many projects of mine, but I thought it may be fun to try.